"God Help Me"
26 July 2008 | Bahia del Sol, El Salvador
by Someone Whom Needs Some Help
I am committed to going back to the states and getting a j.o.b. ! Yes, yes, I know, you have no sympathy. I understand. I know. I never thought there would be a time in my life when I didn't 'have' to have a j.o.b. I usually had 2 or 3 jobs at a time, I lived paycheck to pay check, I have come back from the grocery store in tears because I had to pay for groceries on my credit card, I've committed 'Financial Suicide' - twice, I watched the Lawrence Welk Show because I couldn't afford cable TV and turned down friends because I couldn't afford going out to a movie or dinner with them. It IS nice having some money. It IS nice not worrying to much about what you want to buy. But money comes and money goes. Money can always be made and spent. That's just how it is. One of the reasons I wish I liked cruising more is because it IS less expensive than living on land - but you have to do what you have to do. "God help me."
It IS hard to making a decent living in the Southwest, but if it got over run with people making fortunes it would be ruined. It will probably be good to get a job especially to keep me busy while Scott is away for 6 months and it may cut down on our arguments when he's back - ha,ha. "The boat just makes us fight." - a line from a recent email from a female cruiser who was just trying boating. Scott & I haven't spent more than 1 week at a time apart in 4 years and that only happened twice. I hope I know what to do with myself when he leaves. You get attached to each other being around. Well, I'll have a whole new life to arrange and 2 new cats to care for! Maybe Hilo is ready to reincarnate back to us, or not. Looking forward to some 'cat love'.