25 April 2010 | Cape Cod, Massachusetts
During the voyage itself I was occasionally aware that the end of the voyage would present me with a whole new set of problems. What I failed to consider was that aftermath problems are psychologically quite different from preparation or execution problems because you don't have the motivation that the prospect or the reality of the actually sailing provide.
I mentioned in some of my later posts that I was puzzled, even dismayed, at the prospect of life without the circumnavigation dream. Sure enough, it has been very difficult. It does not seem possible at all for me to get back into a nine to five role. Even if I could face the idea, the job market, as we all know, has not been receptive to anyone, least of all aging and marginal types like myself. I did consider continued voyaging and took a few steps in that direction, but the passion is just no longer there. The boat and I are 5 years older than when I started this project in earnest and the financial picture is not promising (although I am aware that the financial piece often works out when the passion is present.)
So if I am not a voyager and not a salaryman, what am I? In considering this issue over the last year I often have returned to a memory from my hitchhiking tour of the South Island of New Zealand. I met a couple whose life consisted of traveling the world (the dryer parts) by bicycle. I remember thinking that this might be the life for me. I don't know whether I will end up in full-time bicycle nomadism, but I have been taking steps lately to find out where this idea might lead.
I don't have a house or a car to get rid of, but there is the boat. In some ways I'd like to hold on to her, but it seems wiser and more feasible to let her go. So Blue Stocking is for sale. I'll have to spend the next few months getting her ready for the market. In the meantime, by the way, I'll be quite vulnerable to low-ball offers: I'd like nothing better than to facilitate someone else's grandiose dreams while getting out of a lot of the hard work involved in catching up with deferred maintenance from the voyage. My email address is ketchbs at gmail if you want to get in touch about this or just leave a comment on the blog (I would keep comments of this nature hidden of course.) I don't have pictures or a listing sheet yet, but maybe in a couple of weeks. I'm not that crazy about letting the old girl go, so procrastination is admittedly an issue. But I generally get things done eventually.