Pondering Possibilities and Purpose
28 March 2018
A frequent discussion amongst some cruisers is our purpose in being here. A tough but useful review of lives and dreams follows. Each has a different journey they are navigating but for me here are some discoveries as sailing alone for 3 days provides sufficient time for reflection. My ship glides along at 5 knots with very little intervention from me. I make and eat dinner, another 5 miles made; sleep for 45 minutes, more traces left on the chart plotter. Regardless of what else is happening in the world, everything I need to worry about is roughly with 100' of me and the slush of water under the keel is a constant reminder that I am progressing, alive, pursuing a goal and generally without much effort. It is a remarkable feat in itself and I am so grateful for the opportunity.
However, I have found a certain level of worry persists. I didn't want to leave La Paz, I was having so much fun there. And likewise, I approached the anchorage at Isla Isabella with some trepidation as my solo passage was over. But then, Isla Isabella was such a treat, after 3 days, I retrieved the anchor with some sadness. Much of my anxiety comes from trying to pack so much into each day: is this the right place, should I go here or there; what am I missing. I need to accept that it is perfect as it is; no matter what course I navigate in life. The compass rose is sweet in all directions. Stop and smell the roses. I am not going to see it all. Keep breathing!
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