another day in hell, another one in paradise
09 July 2012 | same 'ol place
As I read a blog from a fellow cruiser member, Rich Boren of Third Day, I find myself staring at the screen in disbelief that my dream has been draggin' along for over 4 yrs now. The excitement of every day getting closer and closer to a cruising date allowed me to keep hammering along on the daily grind stuff, thinking to myself that soon, maybe next month, maybe next year, and now... maybe never... I would realize the experience of cruising out-water and making a few dive spots in the Caribbean or South Pacific islands a notation in my dive log book. Rich and Lori and the kids have been living the life aboard their (first 32' Pearson I think it was and now a 52' Hudson) family sailboat and have come to the end of their planned stay away from the states, checking out practically every taco stand on the coast of Mexico and the Sea of Cortez. Now as they are scheduled to return stateside, I find my plans are just wispy thoughts that we're wishful thinking and have basically resigned myself to the hum-drum life here on land, never to see the deck of my catamaran.
As I write this paragraph, I feel this blog is coming to an end and although I wrote several hopeful entries trying to motivate myself and my direction in life to fulfill my dreams of semi-world travel via sailboat, the economy, the housing slump of 2010-2011 put a damper on all of those thoughts. Nothing short of a big winning lottery ticket will allow me to see those dream days materialize. I followed many sites where in I scoped out several boats that seemingly fit my preconceived idea of what I needed and did many calculations with the price, real estate sales, working and saving and tried to arrive at a way to have enough funds to make it all work. Alas, nothing I can do now will be enough and as life creeps away I feel a disappointment inside that won't go away and on occasion a trip to the coast and a walk in the marina will have to suffice. As I walk among the boats and sailors and their families and read the blog posts here of those that got out, I will again share their travels and dream the dream that got away.