First Mate
13 June 2010 | San Diego
Brad
Dear CeCe, First Mate
I recognize the sacrifice you have made. You gave up everything to follow me on this crazy dream. I saw you sacrifice family, friends, home, and future to support me. You have honored me and we sailed off into my dream. I was King of the Sea. I had a glorious boat, but even better, my precious and beautiful family was with me. I was so proud to be doing it together with the three of you. For me it was pure joy to learn and experience together all of the changes in our new life.
I know that many times you were faced with consequences that were hard for you to bear. I apologize for putting you through a Northwest passage too late in the year, and not knowing better to prevent you that misery. I apologize for my selfishness on our trip and the many times I compounded your fears by pushing just a little more. I apologize for not comforting you more.
I really liked being with you. I am very proud of all of your learning and skill in the marine environment, a place you didn't desire. I am very proud of all of the responsibility you took on the boat and how much you participated. I am proud of how well we worked together, and how smoothly we could pull into a dock. Having all that skill meant that you could have pushed me overboard and sailed home to collect the insurance. Thank you for not doing that. I also really enjoyed your beauty; on deck and on the beaches.
So we are at a new beginning again. I want to commit to moving into your world. To pursue your hobbies, interests, and adventure. I want to slay your dragons. If life somehow consumes me and I don't accomplish this, pull out this letter of commitment and press me. If I am able to overcome my fears and uphold this commitment, pull me in deeper with your tender gentleness.
Your Captain