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Wise Mother Ocean is making sure that I donÂ't arrive to the event too early!! I had a 60nm day on Sunday and only 45nm day yesterdayÂ... I was becalmed yesterday afternoon until 0800 todayÂ... The forecasts just canÂ't seem to get a handle on the weather systems, the models just arenÂ't creative enough to imagine what Nature is going to doÂ...

But we are underway this morningÂ... Luckily, I was ahead of schedule up to this point. We have timeÂ... at least some time.

And the harsh conditions have subsidedÂ...now I just have the insidiousness of trying to keep a course with a wind steering vane with variable winds, shifting continually. God forbid I try to have a focused moment, like typing this blogÂ... I will invariably be way off course when I look at the compassÂ... in fact every time I look at the compass. But eventually, the winds should settle down Â... will be SW tomorrow, dead downwindÂ... but a good amount. We should make good headway.

It is amazingÂ... but the healing journey is still pressing on moment by moment in these last days; becalms, variable winds, emails and planningÂ... my emotions are rawÂ... it seems that I am a bundle of emotions. I am getting to see more of my egoic me day-by-day in the midst of it all, frustrated and bouncing off the walls of this little cabin. The rain and grey skiesÂ... It is just what is surfacing from within my old meÂ... lets face it, I am at a stand-off with my old way of being, trusting for a new transcended way to approach life for my future. Being back on land will present all of my old ways of existing and interacting and it will take lots of time before I have the opportunity to clear the old ways and open a way for something creative and new..

Its as if my ego is screaming like the Wicked Witch of the West one more time wanting to lure me into reacting the same old wayÂ... but with the help of Dr Jeanne DeRouseau and Dr Jeff Eisen, a new way of being is at my doorstep to allow to be revealed through me. I am trusting that as the old ways begin to haunt me, I will recognize them as Â'not meÂ', but that they are my egoic selfÂ... so I can move through them with acceptance of what they are and then open a flow of energy toward the transcended possibility to arise.

It is all faithÂ... I sailed the world on faithÂ... I have lived by faith these last months in the detours of the journey Â... and by faith I will move forward into a creative new life on land, with Bob, midst my family and friends, with a vision that my true self will allow to unfold.

The arrival and welcome reception will be so exciting and should be pure Â'funÂ'Â... Be there or be square!!!

Keepin On Sailin On CaringÂ... It is amazingÂ... Jeanne and I had a life changing chat today, with Jeff there beside her praying, and clearing pathways for meÂ... These last days seem to be a last ditch effort to get as much experience as possible for me in using the Clearing Path and dealing with my egoic self that is arising so sharply in the emotions and exhaustion, and incredible excitementÂ... Keepin On meditatingÂ... My meditation time this morning became overwhelmed by mental overload and despair midst the continuing rain and becalm, my emotions crazyÂ... so this afternoon at 2pÂ... I canÂ't miss you all being with me. Focused Energy Meditation: opening the energy flow to allow something new and fresh, creatively engineered by Life to bring abundance of life and happiness to our experienceÂ... It is here.

And as I suggested, we are totally off course againÂ... the breeze dying and we have fallen off 40*.. surprise surpriseÂ... off I goÂ... I should just take the steering vane off and hand-steerÂ... having to climb in and out of the boat over and over is making me dizzyÂ... rain gear on, rain gear off... la la la la la la la.... 4 more days of sailing... and I will see you all on Friday.

Fairest of winds and the love of the oceans Only Gratitude Donna